Sunday, July 14, 2013

hmmmmmm

  1. e·mo·tion·al  

    /iˈmōSHənl/
    Adjective
    1. Of or relating to a person's emotions.
    2. Arousing or characterized by intense feeling.
    Synonyms
    emotive - affective - sensitive - sentimental


    i think i am dealing with emotion...more than normal...

    i have a grand baby that i don't get to see each day....it makes me sad sometimes
    she is so precious and i feel like i am missing something in my life....

    i have a son getting married soon.....we don't talk much anymore....it's that letting go that kills me....he's gonna be a daddy soon....and they live far away.....

    until two days ago my youngest didn't have a job....college educated and looking hard for
    that first job.....it's so hard on these kids today....thankfully he landed a big deal and now he and his sweet wife are full timers...i am so happy for them.  they are now getting into their own apartment....starting life together in florida....we are so happy for them.....

    i have always been able to just let it go....shove it over my shoulder....am i getting older?
    and i being a big baby?   i'm acutally feeling physically sick....weird....this just isn't me...

    i've been praying that the Lord will calm my heart, take care of my children, and help me cope!!!

    maybe it's hormones.....no i take hormones......!!!!  lol......

    is this what loving is all about?  

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

The older we are the more we continue to learn. It's harder than ever when the kids are big and their struggles are big. It's major hard to not hold/see/be a part of a grand child's life.
Remembering God is in control and loves all of us more than we can imagine takes work! When things are "unfixable" for a mom, it is heartbreaking.
Your normal. Life is hard. Tell God and let Him hold you. Accept a long distance hug.
Happy for Logan.

Justine said...

YUP!!! YOU ARE GETTING OLD!! It will be alright.